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Who are you????????

If we consider the evolution theory of Darwin as true, (although I don’t); and if we believe that human beings are defined by the essence of their soul, then the boundaries that a human soul can reach are defined by two ends, one end meeting the animalistic essence and the other end meeting the celestial heavenly core. Accordingly we can characterize people according to the degree of their closeness to each of these boundaries.

  • Some people are like cats, they look sweet, their meow’s are so nice that makes you want to keep them forever, but you discover that they are mean and rude when it comes to fulfilling their desires, as soon as they see a mouse moving they run after it, forgetting all the good you’ve done, and if you try to stop them they stick their nails into your flesh and the meow turns into a roaring scary sound, and when they are gone they are gone, never remember you again.

  • Other people are like dog’s, they guard you by their lives, they remain loyal forever, they bark in the face of any stranger that wants to you harm, they follow you where ever you go, they will be happy with a piece of bone, and they always come back, yet their place is always outside the house, unless you’re so lonely that you’re ready to share them your bed.

  • Some people are pigs, they eat dirt, they live in dirt, and hearing their sound is annoying. Everyone just sees them as an ugly being, and some see them as good flesh.

  • There are people who are just like monkeys, they imitate every move you make, jump all the time from a branch to a branch, and although they look inferior to other animals, they act like they are wise and know everything. Sometimes you doubt whether they are idiots as they jump around and play or they are wise and intelligent as when they just stare at you and rub their head and all of a sudden make a big wise move.

  • We also meet some people who act like a noble horse, they are classy, walk with pride, famous for their chastity, when they like something or someone they move their tails in an act of respect. When they are tamed they stay loyal forever, however, taming those most noble species need good talent and skills to deserve the ride.

  • One of the most unbearable kinds of people are the ones who act like bears, they just sit in a corner eat, and eat, and then sleep or lie down. They will not make a major move unless they dead hungry and find nothing to eat. When they have needs then they are the most dangerous animals on earth, they growl and growl and there is no escape from them.

  • Some people are like rats, a social animal that always runs around for a piece of cheese, live in holes the most humble accommodations. No one notice a rat unless they unite and come collectively to attack. Yet a piece of cheese will always satisfy them.

  • The most interesting ones are the lion like people, they hold their heads high wherever they go, everybody looks up to them and never know why. They look different, act differently, and never make a sound unless needed, kind of real classy one, force everyone else to silence at their presence. They only roar when it’s needed, to attract the opposite sex or to remind the others of their position in the woods.

  • The dangerous ones are those who are like snakes, they bite when you less expect it from an angle you rarely can imagine. They are a beauty with all that precious colorful skin and nice smooth moves. They fool you into believing they are exceptional and easily get close to you. When you are totally engaged with the magic of the moves, the skin and the strangely gazing eyes, they bite like poisonous dead. If you manage not to drop dead and heal from the bite you will never try to get close to anything like that again.

  • Fox like people greedy and opportunistic, always walking around quietly waiting for the right moment to attack. They always find the sheep like ones to show their power. Although they seem to want nothing their eyes always reveal their hidden malicious intent. If your fooled and don’t notice the mall intent then when the night falls you hear the barks the shivers your skin out.

  • People who remind you of cows or sheep are always tamed and giving, you keep them in your back yard, and they milk you, feed you, and never complain. They accept your control over them and move with your wand to whatever direction you lead them to pasture.

Most probably you wonder which kind of these people you have or want around you???
Referring to what was mentioned about the diversity of human soul; we can say that there is a thin line between the two ends, beastly and heavenly essence. We can downgrade our existence to be more close to the animalistic attitudes mentioned above or we can try our best to elevate our souls to pass that thin line and get close to the other end that ranks us as exceptional creatures called humans. Human beings, who, in all their life time, try their best to be kind, noble, loyal, friendly and devoted, their aim in life would be serving the human kind by their good deeds; they never expect much yet offer a lot. They are a joy to the honest hearts, and an elevated example for the pure souls to follow. They are unique resemblance of all the good traits of all God’s creations. They are like heavenly breeze; they bring joy, happiness, and the sweet smell of spring flowers to the gardens of human soul.


October 7, 2009 Posted by | experience | Leave a comment

From a Hobby to a Career

It happened exactly one month after my divorce, 7 years ago. I was a total ignorant when it came to computers, so I asked my sister to teach me how to use it. It took few days to learn the basics and get an ID in yahoo.I remember when she was trying..
  to teach me how to use online search engines I was shouting at her not to do different tasks at one time…and she was making fun of me, I thought if she opened a new page the old one will disappear.

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September 29, 2009 Posted by | experience | Leave a comment

Days of My Life

Did you ever ask yourself:
What if this was it?
What if it stayed the same?

What if we never hear the sweet melodies of the glorious past?
I have nothing to say today?
My heart and mind is full of nothing except a deep profound silence…
Are we growing too fast or too slow…?
Why I find nothing in what I hear, what they say, what I comprehend…
What is my role today?
Or…maybe the list of roles has ended…and there is nothing more to do…or say…
Maybe the ground should be shaken again…
Maybe the list should repeat itself…..
Maybe there is nothing more to it…
and that’s it………………………………………………..

September 20, 2009 Posted by | experience | , , | Leave a comment

From a Hobby to a Career

It happened exactly one month after my divorce, 7 years ago. I was a total ignorant when it came to computers, so I asked my sister to teach me how to use it. It took few days to learn the basics and get an ID in yahoo.I remember when she was trying..
  to teach me how to use online search engines I was shouting at her not to do different tasks at one time…and she was making fun of me, I thought if she opened a new page the old one will disappear.

After a month I managed to buy a pc, and get connected…hehehe…I was so slow…so confused…but I started to use the help page in each application and go on from there…in less than 1 month of day and night constant act of exploring, I was an expert in using different types of messengers, the office word, and surfing the net.

Then I started socializing, finding friends all over the world. I was an MA student doing my major in English literature. My thesis was about comparing the role of modern woman in the literature of Black America, the Arab world and Iran…tricky one…needed lots of work….I had to read lots of books online and do lots of researches, so I talked to different people. Sometimes I was asking them about problems I had and they guided me kindly, other times I used the help button or just kept searching through all the search engines for people who had the same problem and tried their solutions.

Since school days I was in love with physics and mathematics, why I got involved with studding literature for my masters is a long story I will tell later,

However; my desktop pc and the internet world became a puzzle that I had to solve mathematically…(it’s kind of hard to explain, I’ll try my best)…
My mind was an analyzer who would not just depend on luck to learn or solve an issue related to the IT world….
Why I jumped to the digits world…aha…just wanted to explain how my mind was working at the time exploring this new world.
So, let’s organize what I said here:

1. A divorced housewife who never stepped out her household, a complete IT ignorant started using her first pc.
2. Using the messenger and finding friends to talk to made it an appealing world to the housewife.
3. The master’s thesis needed more work, research, and online reading, so surfing the net was the next step I took.
4. Doing all that needed the use of office word, to type in my notes, summaries and conclusions.
5. Started using the help from the start for each application to ease my way out of the problems I face and to avoid the funny smile on my sis face.
6. All the time even in my dreams I was practicing what I learned and reviewing my mistakes.

One day, suddenly I found myself to be a real expert in managing whatever was related to this invention called pc…and yes my sis, not only one of them but all of them
( I have 4 sisters) started calling me at least twice a week asking about how to do a certain thing or use a certain application, or how to reinstall a new operating system, or get rid of a virus………YES… I WENT THAT FAR…..even more it was only last week when the netbook (simply saying a netbook is a small size laptop) I had suddenly stopped working…and it was out of warranty…so I brought my especial toolbox and took the escrow driver out to open the cover of the netbook and fix it…that was when I heard my sis husband making fun of what I was doing, HE IS AN “IT” EXPERT, I said nothing.. Just continued what I was doing…and yes my netbook was up and right working again after I did what I had to do…
I felt so proud of myself, I never attended any classes for that, I just tried constantly and insistently to learn what I had to learn to be good at what I really loved. This has opened the windows to a bigger world with lots of more opportunities in life for me which I will tell you about later.

I guess what I’m trying to say here is;
No matter how disappointed you are….
No matter how simple minded and ignorant you are…
No matter how much fun others make of what you do….

1. Find something that you’re enthusiastic about even if it scares you….
2. Get some help to start…
3. Then try as hard as you can to gather as much information as you can, and don’t be scared to ask silly questions.
4. Now with the information you gained spend days and nights trying, trying, and trying…
5. Never stop, even if you got disappointed…stop for an hour, a day, but not more than a week, and try again…
6. Probably you will fail lots of times or ruin lots of things….always review and go through what you did to learn from your mistakes.
7. One day, all of a sudden the miracle will happen and you will be in full command over what you were trying to accomplish, and you will feel so proud no matter how small the task was.

September 18, 2009 Posted by | experience, Hobby | Leave a comment

Life Journey

It’s funny how life still has so many surprises for us……

When you take it for granted, it just turns everything upside down,

To tell you don’t get used to it, it will never stay the same…

To my surprise life had so many hidden things for me again….

And I keep wondering, would I ever settle down…

I was on the top, with full command over my life……..

And the storm of the credit crises came to shake everything upside down….

Like an earth quick,

It ruined everything, it was sudden, and it was unexpected…..

When I wake up from the shock, all I could see was the ruins everywhere….

Could not say anything….

Wherever I looked I just saw dead ends…

But kept in mind that I was gifted to be safe, me with all the members of my family….

And, day by day I saw a new self in me…

A new self emerged out from the ruins…

It looks like me, but it’s not me…

It’s a much stronger self…

A self that kept telling me, EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON…

The broken parts of my life and soul were lying just in front of my eyes…

I could not even collect them and attach them together…

I just left everything to God…

I was stuck in a corner that had no way out…

While still watching what happens…

While still amazed and shocked…

Isaw the broken parts fitting together in the most strangest way, a way I never thought possible…

 A new image of my life was now in front of me, a one that I never expected…..

A new image of me…my soul…and myself……

September 17, 2009 Posted by | experience, religion | Leave a comment